Friend.....ABANDON ME!!

now I just realize what is FRIEND, what FRIEND call..
Your friend, will always beside of you and listen what you say, they wont interrupt what you say and they wont judge you and they will always support you that what you do and what you need.
Not like me....
They always wont listen what I say and always be deafness....
When they talk what they need, I be the listener and listen what they say about and give some opinion.
When I talk, I be grumble, they didn't say anything and just silent. Everytime also like that. I told myself before that I won't be grumble infront of them, but I can't control because that I can't stand of one person I will be grumble and say it out. I just need to release my stressness only, like that also got wrong meh??
Last time also... they abandon me and left me there and they go play.
OK!!!
In this world, I have no friend. I have no listener to listen my grumble.
And, please think before if you are the correct way and just judge me!!!
No people judge me that are no perfect are he/she!!

A friend, when you are fall into a deeper place, they will help you not derogatory you.
A friend, when you are sad, they will make you happy and they will always stand beside you and sad with you.
A friend, no matter how you make them angry, they wont upset on you and just forgive you.
A friend, when you are happy, they also happy with you.
A friend, they will always love you.
A friend, they will always be your listener and wont abandon you.

What the hell friend that I have:
always abandon me and go shopping and sport and tea time together without me.
always wont listen what I say.
always feel that I'm the extra.
always think that I can replace the place if got one people can't attend the date.

please!!! I'm not thing, I'm a human, I'm a man...... I got feeling... don't think that you all just got feeling!!!
from last time until now you all also be like this, like to abandon me..
ya.... abandon la!!!! I won't talk with you all anymore... be abandon me!!!!!!
I also know how to abandon you all!!!!
ISHHHHHHH!!!!
FUCK OFF with you all.. what 5 years friend... secondary until now... now college life also like that!!!
I hate that is 5 years of friendship!!!!!!!
That abandon me always!!!!